It's been awhile

It has been awhile since I have stepped foot over in blog land. I miss it. I truly do. I sometimes lay (lie?) awake at night and write blog entries into my head, and I think if only I could just write them down so I wont forget them, naahhh I wont forget them, oh look shiny object, what blog? There has been so much going on in my life and I dont even know where to start. Or how much to write now, save for later. What can I write, what CANT I write? This is a confusing time for my brain. Is anyone even out there reading and waiting for my blog to light up that it is new again? Does anyone even care anymore? I think it is time to jump into blogland again because I miss it. I truly do. I miss the people I have met and grown to care about. I miss being able to just pour my feelings on here uncensored. I can say how I truly feel on here, and not fear the repurcussions. This is my truth and I want it out there. I vow to start writing again. Once a week is my minimum goal, and more if possible. Come back to me please?

I WANT IT BADDDDDD

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First Post of the New Year

Ahh my first post of the New Year. If you are expecting a doozy, well you may get it. I dont know how much I have to say. So let's see. New Year's Eve? Did nothing. Stared at my family who were fighting to stay away until midnight. I drank some champagne but that was about it. New Year's Day we started our trek home to R R from Salida, CO. Normally a 17 hour drive but with 6 people, there are always bathroom/thirsty/hungry breaks, and we stopped in Dumbass, I mean Dumas, Texas. It stunk by the way, but the hotel was pretty nice. Up at 6 the next day and away we go. We had 2 cars, and were convoying. In my car it was my Momma, Sissy, and Me. Can you just imagine the Conversation in That car? Ears should be turning red. But it was great to spend some quality alone time with them, and it is never enough. Friday night just hung out with Kenny and Michelle for dinner. Saturday, my awesome StepMom, met us in Columbus for the exchanging of the animals. The exchange was we get the dogs, and my parents get their sanity back. I picked up Sissy's dog too cause she is writing a 64!! page paper that is due Tuesday, and didnt have time to pick up Chassis, her dog. So me being the Awesome Amazing, Sister that I am, I have Chassis until Tuesday. M and my gift for Christmas was a new cd player for the Tahoe. Ours broke and I just couldnt stand it. So our new one is soo NIFTY. It has bluetooth, so my cell phone comes through the radio speakers, and it connects to M's IPOD, and my NEW ITOUCH!! WOOT WOOT!! Who's Bad?! So the IPOD comes thru the speakers. Sunday, we did NOTHING!! We were so tired, we didnt get out of bed until 2:30. Yeah, that IS lazy, haha. Keep your fingers crossed, I am applying to GISD for substituting. RRISD was full. Now, I am NOT leaving my awesome job with KA. This would be in Addition to. I have a light work and school load this semester, and what better way to make some extra money. I am super excited, I just need to get into an orientation that isnt full. I am on the waiting list for the next one. FINGERS CROSSED!! Well keep UT in your prayers tonight. Our bowl game is being played tonight against Ohio state. We Should Have Been playing for the National Championship but WHATEVER!! YOU HEAR ME BCS PEOPLE!! WHATEVER!!!!!! Communists!!! I hope everyone had a great Christmas/New Years Eve 2 weeks, and all that stuff.

We got Elfed

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Thanks Meli!!!

One of my favorite songs right now

The Airborne Toxic Event - "Sometime Around Midnight"

Click on it. You know you want to.

The Airborne Toxic Event - Sometime Around Midnight Lyrics

And it starts, sometime around midnight.
Or at least that’s when you lose yourself
for a minute or two.
As you stand, under the bar lights.
And the band plays some song
about forgetting yourself for a while.
And the piano’s this melancholy soundtrack to her smile.
And that white dress she’s wearing
you haven’t seen her for a while.

But you know, that she’s watching.
She’s laughing, she’s turning.
She’s holding her tonic like a cross*.
The room’s suddenly spinning.
She walks up and asks how you are.
So you can smell her perfume.
You can see her lying naked in your arms.

And so there’s a change, in your emotions.
And all these memories come rushing
like feral waves to your mind.
Of the curl of your bodies,
like two perfect circles entwined.
And you feel hopeless and homeless
and lost in the haze of the wine.

Then she leaves, with someone you don’t know.
But she makes sure you saw her.
She looks right at you and bolts.
As she walks out the door,
your blood boiling
your stomach in ropes.
Oh and when your friends say,
“What is it? You look like you’ve seen a ghost.”

Then you walk, under the streetlights.
And you’re too drunk to notice,
that everyone is staring at you.
You just don’t care what you look like,
the world is falling around you.

You just have to see her.
You just have to see her.
You just have to see her.
You just have to see her.
You just have to see her.
You know that she’ll break you in two

12/22/08

Soooo how was everyone's weekend? Mine was pretty awesome if I may say so myself. And I think I just did. Let's see. Let's backtrack to Friday. Went to Thyroid doctor, everything looks good. Had to give about 20 quarts of blood, just to make sure, but as of right now Thyroid doing A-Ok. Then I went and got my hair did. It is a much darker color, but since it will fade, it will become more of my natural (? who knows?) color, and I wont have to dye it as much. And when I say dark, I mean almost blackish. Cause you know dyeing costs money and stuff. Then greatest of all greatest, we got the kiddos!! I am soo happy. There was a little drama involved, but hey when is there not? But it was very little drama, so that is a feat in it self. Then we went to see "The Day the Earth Stood Still" with future baby daddy Keanu Reeves. **SPOILER ALERT** It is a tree hugger movie about saving the planet before it is too late, or aliens will come and take over and exterminate us. So save a tree, Save a Planet. Saturday we just went shopping and spent all of our money. Ok maybe not all, but most, haha. We just hung out and played Wii all night. Marty had to work, so the kids and I played the new Rayman Rabbid TV game that they got as an early Christmas present. It is a blast, though we need a few more pieces to fully enjoy this particular game. Sunday we had our Flores Family Christmas. It was awesome to have all of the siblings together under one roof, though they do it often anyways. But 4 Siblings, and their spouses and kids. and let's just say Noisy and Loud, but awesome. We got great gifts too. Tori and Timmy (my kiddos), have cousins their own ages so they just played and played. On our way home we stopped at this store called, "Steve and Barrys". They are having a Huge going out of business sale. So let's just say I got a bunch of jeans and stuff. Each pair of jeans were $7.49!!!!!! And they arent crappy either. And Tori and Timmy also got clothes. Marty got a shirt. Since they have been having this sale for a while the pickings were slim but since I am big girl, they had lots of pants in my size, (thank you small Mexicans!!). And did I mention how cold it is here?? It was 29 when I came to work today. And we keep the heater off at work, so it was in the 50's inside. I cranked that badboy on, and now it is 68. Once it hits 74 SOLD!! One of the mothers brought us hot cocoa and cinammon rolls this morning. God bless people like that. Well I will be at work all day today and manana. Which is cool, cause can you say Mo Money? Mo Money. Good Job. Well I am off to kiss a lizard.

Words of Wisdom

Here are some words of wisdom from my father.


Someday someone may kill you with your own gun, but they should have to beat you to death with it because it is empty.

12/16/08

Hello my people. Well I am just having one of THOSE days. First of all, it is COLD. And I mean like hurts to breath cold. Then I am trying to get to my doctors office and my windshield was frozen up. Okkkk, so I get the ol Sam's Club card and used that (that is about all I use it for now anyways). So of course I am a few minutes late for the appointment. Still that is no excuse to make me wait 1 1/2 hours. Ree Donk Cue Lus, I am telling you. I go to get a mole checked out. I come out finding that he thinks there is another growth on my thyroid, so Friday I have to go to an Endocrinologist and get it checked again. I am dreading it because if I have to have it removed, well let's just say it really sucked last time. My body has finally recovered from it. AND I still have to get the mole removed. And I have to get a damn root canal in January. What the Eff? Hello Body? Stop Breaking on Me. I Demand it. So because my doctor ran so late, I barely made it to my dentist office on time. Then I ran around taking goodies to other doctor's offices for my work. COLD outside. But lucky for me I missed the ice somehow, because we did have it. Today was just one of those blustery days for me mentally and the weather. It is going to get much warmer this weekend and then next week just in time for traveling time and Christmas it will get really really cold again. Bahhh

Soo It's been a while

Yeah well so sue me. I had finals last week, and something was always Happening. M's dad was sick, and is still sick but now with something else. The holidays are coming up, so while I think I have plenty of time, I am working more, and getting all of my appointments done while I am on break from school. My life is going great right now. I LOVE LOVE my job, I dont think I could have writen a better job for me. Lately I have been writing down quotes when they pop in to my head. Sometimes they are song quotes, sometimes they are just funny sayings I actually come up with myself. I need to get a notebook for me that I can carry with me, so I can write them down at all times. Like when I am driving and come up with a great saying.

Since I am such a loser I will repost my daily email from today.


Oh Em GEE. It is colder than a welldigger's butt in the Klondike. Yesterday I was in a tshirt and jeans, and now I am frozen. Literally FROZEN. I dont like this crap at all. Hope everyone had a great weekend. My Sissy was in town, so all was well. Went to my awesome work party Friday night, had a great time. My peoples are cool, so I am lucky. Saturday vegged, and I mean vegged out on the couch doing nothing but reading and watching TV. Then we went to Grahams, because Sissy needs to be reintroduced to the fun scene. And I am just the person to do that. Sunday we went to San Antonio and walked around the Mercado. (that's the Market for you white people). Then we got to go to the Spurs game courtesy of Yvonne (thank you!!). Spurs won, so all is good. It was still 70 degrees at midnight when I got home. Stupid Polar Front. And it's really Windy. And we all know how I feel about the Wind. No me gusta. I found out this morning I have to get a root canal. I am waiting for January though, because of the deductible. Sounds fun right??? Well that is all I have to say for now. Unless you want to talk about the Kindle. It is the most amazing thing EVER

Tessa F 1996-2008

Guardians Of The Night

Author - Unknown

Trust in me my friend for I am your comrade.
I will protect you with my last breath
When all others have left you
And the loneliness of the night closes in, I will be at your side.
Together we will conquer all obstacles,
And search out those who might wish harm to others.
All I ask of you is compassion, The caring touch of your hands.
It is for you that I will unselfishly give my life
And spend my nights unrested.
Although our days together
May be marked by the passing of the seasons
Know that each day at your side is my reward.
My days are measured by
The coming and going of your footsteps.
I anticipate them at every opening of the door.
You are the voice of caring when I am ill.
The voice of authority when I've done wrong.
Do not chastise me unduly For I am your right arm,
The sword at your side.
I attempt to do only what you bid of me.
I seek only to please you and remain in your favor.
Together you and I shall experience A bond only others like us will understand
When outsiders see us together Their envy will be measured by their disdain.
I will quietly listen to you
And pass no judgment, Nor will your spoken words be repeated
I will remain ever silent, Ever vigilant,ever loyal.
And when our time together is done
And you move on in the world
Remember me with kind thoughts and tales,
For a time we were unbeatable,
Nothing passed among usundetected.
If we should meet again on another street
I will gladly take up your fight,
I am a Police Working Dog and together
We are guardians of the night

Good night my Tessa. You had an unforgettable life and you fought your last courageous battle with valor. You protected me when M was gone, and you gave your life so that the streets would be safe.
You will forever be M's partner. We will meet again where you will always be pain free and there will be plenty of tennis balls. :)

We love and miss you.

11/06/08

Yesterday was a pretty good day. Had school in the morning, busy busy day in the evening, and then we went to Pluckers afterwards. Good to see friends as usual. I knew a lot of the trivia answers, cause I am smart like that. Then Marty and I went home to catch up on our tv shows. There is a new show out, called "The Rookies" on A&E. And for some reason I didnt want to watch this one episode. I kept telling Marty to turn it off. Then at the end, you begin to realize that the officer was killed on duty. On July 4th 2007, Deputy Sheriff Josh Norris got engaged to his fiance. On July 5th 2007, Officer Norris lost his life when he responded to a domestic disturbance call. Read his story here. At this time, we are also awaiting the sentencing part for the killer of Game Warden Justin Hurst's trial. Justin's partner is a good friend of my family. Justin leaves behind a young son. Just reading and hearing about these stories upsets me beyond belief. I have a hard time dealing with that aspect of Marty's career and there isnt a day that goes by that I dont say a prayer for the safe return of my husband, and all of our friends who put their lives in danger everyday. But I realized that by putting Officer Norris' and Warden Hurst's stories on here and on the television, that they would get more recognition and now a nation is praying for a young officer, whose brief life ended too soon and maybe a few of you might add 2 more men to your prayer list at night.

11/05/08

The running amok and taking over my tv shows. We can now get back to our regularly scheduled broadcasts. I missed my shows and stuff. We stayed up to watch the results, and they certainly came earlier than I expected. Irregardless of whom you voted for, I am just glad you voted. I am also honored to be living in a time where it is possible for a female to vote for a man of color. That means my non-white child could become President in his/her lifetime. Or am astronaut. Or an actor. Or a professor. Or a lottery winner. (hahahaha some one needs to fund my 401). I witnessed a historic event that will be written in the history books.
Enough about someone else, lets move on to me. :)
Doing good in school. We are learning about Mendel in Biology and cross tests. Past subjunctives in Span 3, and how boys and girls really arent that different in pyschology (at least dont judge a book because they are dumb boy, apparently we are more alike than we think, bahhhh whatever). It got up to 84 degrees here. I love it. I wish it would stay this way forever, but without the gale force winds that are making it hard to drive. No lie. I could barely talk on the phone/apply my lipstick-mascara/shave my legs/read a book while driving to school this morning. Sheeeessh. Though it is chilly inside my work, I need to go get my jacket out the car but I only have another 45 minutes. I think I can suffer or just be lazy. Whatever. I found these Rice Quakes by Quaker (ranch style) and they are Yum-O. Did I mention I saw Rachel Ray and Mario Batelli at NASCAR? Yeah who knew?

Well I am off to see the Wizard

2nd update

voted today!! I hope you did so too! My reasoning is, if you do not vote, then what are our men and women fighting for overseas? And I will have no right to complain if my person does not win, but I spoke and one ballot is worth all of the loudest voices. I was going to sleep in today (NASCAR weary), but I got up, took a shower, brought my Span3 book with me, stood in line, and studied until it was my turn. It only took 20 minutes to stand in line, though there was a huge line behind me. I just went to school early, and studied there. There were a few issues that I was really concerned about, but mostly I was just kinda ehhh. I should have studied more about the locals whom I was voting for. One guy I know I need to vote to keep him the incumbent because he has been very police friendly and we always appreciate that. How was everyone's voting experience? Apparently there has been a problem with the Williamson County ballot, so I wonder what happens now. Do we revote?
I went and looked at some new apartments but they were layed out strange. Why do people do that? Do they think people who live in apartments are retarded? Dont Answer That. Have you ever wondered how a copy machine copies? Fascinating stuff man.
Marty has a flag football game tonight, not sure if I want to go sit out in the chill or not. Hmm. I am too pretty to be cold. It smells like poo in my office and I need to go find out why. ickkk

Updates

First I just want to say thank you to everyone for your kind comments. And know that my parents are very supportive people, both financially and mentally, and they give me their all 100% of the time. I just get in these moods, as we all do, and this is my place to vent. I am better now, and I have rearranged some priorities in my life, to make my life easier but better. So here are 2 past daily emails that I have sent out and that should put you pretty current. :)


Well folks. Another successful NASCAR has come and gone. So sad :(. We now start the countdown until the April Race. We wound up getting to NASCAR late Thursday night after much to do, but we were successful in our victory against the RV, and we made it in a rentail (courtesy Mom THANK YOU!!), and by 11pm we were drinking beer and then some. Friday morning the dawn broke on thousands of trailers in our Mecca for Tornados (prolly one of the largest trailer parks in existence at the moment. Friday we saw some practice and Qualifying. Friday night we went to the Craftsman Truck Series Race. That was fun to watch. Friday night we just hung around the greatest camp fire EVER, and told stories and whoppers (it was THIS big). There might have been some beer drinking but I never saw any. HAHAHHAHA fooled you. I believe I may have done some shopping. Just a little. Saturday, more shopping, some interactive haulers (where you get free stuff), and more practice and then the Nationwide (Busch) Series Race. That was a lot of fun.
And then, Saturday night happened. There perhaps might have been some beer drinking and Wild Turkey shooting, and Jack Daniels slurping, but you werent there so you cant prove it. We were screaming and hootin and hollerin at the UT game, (we are still terribley sad and disappointed, hold me), and tradition is to do a Wild Turkey shot at every UT touchdown, so ruffled some Wild Turkey feathers. Then we went patrolling. Intooooo NOTHING. No ONE was partying. We were ready to cause a ruckus and NOTHING. I dont understand, and I am at a loss for words. We all were. Deeply saddened at the lack of social gatherings. So we made our way back to our homesite, and hung out with the neighbors who forced me to drink Jack and Lemonade. I lead a rough life.
Sunday morning, the ball of 10,000 suns of light beamed it's way into my brain dragging me out of sleep, and forcing me to smell someone cooking eggs and stuff. I believe I was finally able to eat a sandwich around noon. And then. The greatest true love of every redneck American, NASCAR Sprint Cup Series. The Great American Speedway (GAS) known as Texas Motor Speedway stood before us welcoming us into her arms. 300 + some odd laps and getting to listen to angry little men cursing into their radios, nothing can be better. The #99 Roush/Fenway Office Depot Carl Edwards Ford Fusion made TMS his bitch. That is Marty's driver. So we once again got to see Carl's famous backflip of awesomeness after he won, and he squeezed closer in points to reigning championship leader, Jimmie "Sucksmybutt" Johnson. How did the #12 Alltel Ryan Newman Dodge do, you ask? Let's just say he didnt wreck, blow up, or anything like that and finished in the top 30. So far that's great this year, BUT WE DONT JUDGE, ok? It's just a rough year for us and we are FAITHFUL until the end, you hear me? And my friends, I lied to you. I know hard to believe. BUT Ryan Newman will be going into the #39 Army car next season, NOT the #4 Army car, so I apologize for any confusion or pain I may have caused you.
So as you can see, I am back now at work, working, And stuff.

Please do NOT forget to vote tomorrow!!!!
You can go online and find out where you need to vote, and make sure you go to your correct polling place and bring your id. And something to read because they are expecting record turnouts (good for you America!!). Please dont be discouraged by the long lines. Just suck it up and let your voice be heard tomorrow!!

Trish "Baby Jesus' right here" Flores